Just Words

Gosh, there are times when I just want to scream. Do you ever feel like that? As if you could just walk to the top of a really big hill and scream for about 15 minutes. Then walk back home and you’d feel a little bit better, today is one of those days. In fact, this month is probably one of those months in all honesty. Forever feeling like I cant express myself because there are so many other people worse off, is some what claustrophobic. In a space where we are forever judged for ‘moaning too much’ or being ‘ungrateful for what we have’ or even simply being ‘negative’, it can get a little overwhelming. I just want to breathe out.

It’s been such a long time since I let my thoughts flow from my mind onto a keyboard, maybe that’s where I’m going wrong. Remove myself and my woes from social media and simply spill my guts here. In a world obsessed with Instagram, nobody will probably read it anyway. I can simply go on with my day and use this as a virtual scream release. Just like the good old days.


Why it’s Ok to Feel Sexy as a Mother

Evie turns three in August and today, 989 days after she was born is the first time I’ve felt sexy. I don’t understand why feeling sexy as a mother is such a taboo. You spend all of your time pre-baby making yourself feel sexy, wanting to feel sexy and wanting other people to find you sexy; so why not after you become a mother? I don’t know why today is the day I’ve suddenly started to feel sexy again, but I had a bath, looked at my body and finally accepted that it was great. Yes I have cellulite, yes I don’t look the same as I did before having a child, but I look bloody good! I think learning to accept and enjoy the body you have is so enlightening. It’s not wrong to feel sexy as a mother, why shouldn’t we feel sexy? Just because we spend most of our days looking after small humans, doesn’t mean we have to lose ourselves in the process. I think in the beginning it is so natural to do that, but as time passes it’s totally Ok to invest that time in ourselves again.